When I was a child I was never a fan of the rosary. I always rushed through the Hail Mary’s as my family gathered in my parents’ bedroom. With all those repeated prayers I would end up dozing off by the end of the rosary.
Fast track to 2016, when I had made the decision to give up on masturbation. Since the age of 10 I had struggles with this habit, finding myself masturbating to sleep every single night. For 12 years it had been going on and on.
One night, I felt the urge.
For a while I had been fighting the temptations, falling every now and then. But that particular night I didn’t want to fall. I wanted to fight. But the urge was so strong and I felt so weak. I felt the frustration rise in my chest, as I got angry with myself for having these feelings.
Then a thought came through my mind: I got up from my bed, looked through my shelfs and got the rosary I got from the Dominican Sisters at a retreat I had attended with my friends that year. It’s made out of red, blue and yellow rope, and about the size of my wrist. I held on to it and thought about the times when I was a child and fell to sleep so fast in the repetition of the Hail Mary’s. I went back to bed, holding tight at the rosary and began to pray for purity.
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee,
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary Mother of God,
Pray for us, sinners,
Now and at the hour of our death. Amen.
I prayed this prayer, as I went through the rosary, again and again. And when I would finish, I would start again from the beginning, until I went peacefully to sleep.
For the rest of the year I would go to sleep, holding on to the rosary. And to this day I continue doing so.
But not only that, since then I have been praying the rosary every single day, meditating on the life of Jesus through the eyes of His Mother: in her docility to God’s Will in her from the moment at the Annunciation – saying her full-hearted “YES” to bearing the Son of God in her womb (Luke 1:26–38) – to standing right beside Jesus on the cross as breathed his last (John 19:25-27). Jesus was God made flesh, born from the Virgin Mary, who listened to her when she asked him for that miracle at the wedding in Cana (John 2:1-11). And just like that wedded couple, why should she not listen to our pleas for intercession?
The Rosary is Mama Mary’s most favourite prayer, as it is a devotional prayer in honour of Our Mother in Heaven. Sister Lucia dos Santos, one who at a young age had an encounter with Mama Mary when she appeared in Fatima said,
“There is no problem, I tell you, no matter how difficult it is, that we cannot resolve by the prayer of the Holy Rosary.”